“Feedback”

I have people slide in my messages. Some say “keep going”, some say “Thank you for speaking out.” A few say “be quiet.” “I love you, but you shouldn’t..” (I’m sure more think it 😂)

Maybe you’re reading this and you fall into one camp or another. You can tell me how you feel or don’t, it’s fine. Honestly, I love to hear your perspective. But It doesn’t determine my direction. I’m not a blogger seeking feedback, I’m a daughter of Christ seeking His. I’m just a writer, taking notes..

A year ago something changed for me. I was in a coaching group and my fabulous coach and her team were giving me feedback on this website and where I was heading. At the time I consider myself a mom blogger but I was feeling pulled toward something else too. I guess you could say I was in between stages of growth. They gave me feedback about what was wrong with my site and, though I didn’t find it very comfortable, I didn’t resist it either. I listened, with an open heart.

Until one of them said a specific thing I “needed” to do, and immediately in my heart, something rose up and I said “no”. It want defensive or defiant. They weren’t wrong. But suddenly, I knew it wasn’t right for me, and so many questions I had became clear. What happened in that moment, is what I thought I have been doing and what I wrestled with needing to do next became so evident to me. I said so. In that moment, I found my voice. And you know what happened? My coach said the best thing any coach can ever say to you. “I don’t have to understand. You feel the Holy Spirit showing you something, and you have to follow that.”

I hit the ground running and things haven’t looked the same since. Maybe you’ve noticed. Maybe you haven’t. That’s fine. Whether or not you’ve read any of the posts, I really mean it, it’s fine.

Because I mean what I say and write- about not caring what others think, listening to your heart, being free to follow God, we were made for a purpose, and His Love is everything.
I wrestle with, listen for, and absorb these truths. I stumble and seek to live them out myself. Because I’m smitten by this Love.
I process it out loud, I share quickly, I let others in on the treasures I find, and I invite you to journey, too.
Your journey doesn’t have to look like mine, you don’t have to agree with everything or anything I say. But I hope to scatter good seeds, that some would be planted well.
I scatter often, pray the bad ones fall away, and the good ones grow. I scatter often, even if it’s only in the wind.

Am I right about everything (every post/opinion/all politics, etc?) I’m sure not. I’m also sure I’m not for everyone.
My job is not to fill your feed with whatever you’re looking for. My job is to fill mine with whatever I feel fit to share, whatever I find on my way.

I don’t care if it makes you comfortable or uncomfortable.
I don’t care if you like me or don’t. It’s not what I’m after. I’m not here for anyone’s approval or comfort. Mine included.
I love your beautiful soul. I seek to find truth, to speak truth and to keep listening for Truth…

We talk an awful lot about finding our voice in the world. And we should. Use them for something important. Something that matters. We’re wise to take time to make sure it’s tied to something besides our every whim. Something besides making men cheer or groan. Tied to something beyond ourselves. For me that’s God. A living, breathing God who gives me feedback, who speaks to me, who guides me along the way.

I’m just a writer, listening for God’s heartbeat, hearing His love song over His creation, and I’m passing it along. No matter how imperfectly. I don’t need to be perfect, that was never a prerequisite, nor to please everyone. I only need to please One, to get His feedback, and to keep going. (So do you!).

Even as I type this a song I’ve never heard is playing. “Nothing’s gonna hold me back any longer!” Is fear of man going to keep holding you back??

Spend time listening to God’s heartbeat. Spending time listening to what He has to say, to what His plans are for you. So you can know the love of God, know your purpose in God, know how to live in it and know how to share.

Let’s go friends!!!